Fine at 29.. from the inside out.

This year... is... the... LAST FULL YEAR I’LL SPEND IN MY 20s 😩

February 19, I will be turning 29. While I can’t believe I’m a full blown adult at times, I am actually, REALLY looking forward to my 30s. I hear that your 20s are spent failing and figuring it all out, and your 30s are spent applying all of the wisdom you’ve learned from the failures of your 20s. I can’t lie, I freaking FAILED in my 20s. But did I really? Lol I made poor choices BUT I’m actually still alive so it couldn’t’ve been that bad, right? Ha! My main goal this year is really taking the time and effort to care for myself.. from the inside out. Hence the name of this blog post.... FINE AT 29 honey!

One thing I’ve struggled with my whole life is asthma and allergies. I’ve been hospitalized for respiratory issues multiple times and rushed to the emergency room on about 5 occasions. Thank God for good insurance but I am sick of living my life in fear of dying of suffocation because I simply forgot my inhaler! That’s just not my portion. So I’ve begun to make some real life changes. I’ve realized that by making exercise a part of my lifestyle it regulates my breathing and keeps my heart feeling great! Not to mention it relieves SO much stress. Shout out to ORANGETHEORY. I am seriously obsessed with the Orange Room. I travel a lot (I’m actually sitting in the sky as I’m writing this now) and I’ve seen that this place is consistent across the nation. The coaches are all awesome, knowledgeable, enthusiastic and have great bodies..... Meaning they practice what they preach and believe in what they’re doing. Not to toot my own horn but today, I got 38 splat points and since making these changes, I did the whole workout without needing my inhaler at all for the first time!!! HUGE progression for me. If you’ve never been or have a hard time trying to navigate a gym on your own, seriously try Orangetheory! After going from being a full time dance teacher to a full time flight attendant, I’ve seen that my body’s made some rapid changes, in a bad way.... AND I AIN’T HAVIN THAT! On a real note, I’m not trying to be single forever but even more than that, I want my clothes to fit me as if I’m my own mannequin. Granted it’s not the clothes it’s how you wear them... I just know how I like to wear mine, you feel me?

Along with Orangetheory, I’ve started taking my vitamins... consistently. (Yes, I buy the gummies whenever I can.) I’m a fan of HUM Nutrition Vitamins. I’ve noticed they’re being sold in more places like Nordstrom and Sephora... yes and absolutely. My go tos are Well Balanced and Flatter Me. Also, Olly, sold in Target, they have a gummy for everything! Probiotic is my jam. First of all it’s delicious tastes like mangoes.. Second of all, it really does make me feel like the food I’m eating is digesting better.

I’ve been really monitoring my diet to ensure I’m eating healthy carbs, healthy fats and healthy snacks. You only get one body to live your life in.. it’s gotta last you 80-100 years! What you put in it now will affect it later, I care for my body. After watching my mom pass away at a young 55 years of age, it woke me up.

Lastly, mentally... YOU’VE GOT TO take care of your mind! Really. If you had a friend who talked to you the way you talk to yourself, would you want that person in your life? Would you trust that person? Chances are that’s a hard NO. When you look in the mirror do you say “gosh, you look so beautiful today.” Or do you say “oh my god eww, your hair/face/stomach”? Imagine greeting your “friend” and they greeted you with that sarcastic “wow, and to think you tried this morning?” Chances are that friend would get booted with a quickness. So why do we allow our minds to think those thoughts about ourselves!? My hair, my biggest insecurity. In high school, a guy I really liked said he liked me too but didn’t talk to me until my senior year because of my hair... 😂. Honestly I can crack up at that today. But then, it was a dagger... and I still dated him my senior year. Smh just wow... that’s another day’s post. To this day, I don’t have a clue what I’m doing with my hair but I know who I am... and I am not my hair. Now when I look in the mirror, I say it’s growing or it’s healthy or beautiful even if I struggle to believe it. There’s power in repetition. Take care of your mind and your thought life. It’s so important. Coming out of a marriage where I was torn down verbally, I found that half of the things I BELIEVED about myself WERE FREAKING LIES! To stop believing a lie means you have to mentally rearrange your understanding of truth. That’s a hard thing to do, I get it. But it’s possible. Again I say, there’s power in repetition. I had to tell myself everyday that it wasn’t my fault and that I am enough! until I believed it. If a person can get into your mind and plant doubt, they can destroy you. Don’t give that power to anyone! Write down the opposite of any negative thought you believe about yourself and declare that until you believe it. Drop your new beliefs about yourself in the box below!

I’m looking forward to seeing some awesome statements!!

“Summing it all up, friends, I’d say you’ll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse.”

Philippians 4:8MSG